Lucky or not

I always regarded myself as a person who lacks of luck. Therefore, when something good happens to me, I feel that's a blessing; when something bad happens, I know it is by nature and irresistable.
Keeping this idea in mind, I found that I have been very lucky to have family and friends support me all the time. But now, alone with Eddie here in Seattle, sometimes I feel a little bit lost.
I started to doubt what I should do, what I can do, what I will be, and what is the future lying in front of me. I started to ask myself, "What are you doing, Lizzie?"

So I work for another independent video production

just went to interview with them, it's actually not an interview but more like an introductory to their house/studio/crew. met cute people and crazy people. how come i am feeling like to hang out with gay/lesbian more than straight people?
i think i need some more experience for web design and graphic design.

So I work for an independent film production team

I've been working with this group of people for near two months, so far, had a lot of fun. However this is going to end, and i am thinking what i should do next.
Working/hanging out with gay people are more fun than working this some straight/conservative people, even though I am straight. I feel my gay friends accept me as friend more easily than many straight people I have met.

But who knows, maybe it's bcoz of my poor English that created a wall between me and others.

And I am glad to work on some video/film projects, so that I won't keep myself too far from what I learned in school. Somehow I felt guilty if I decide to pursue another major, I will especially feel sorry to my advisor Bob, for he has been supporting me through my production, and gave me that big hug when I fell.

Thanks, Bob. I kinda miss you, really.