A lot of thoughts in mind, but i don't know how to transfer them to words.
this morning i was watching a concert DVD borrowed from friend, Karajan in new year concert. there is ballet dancer footage in one of the songs, and it totally reminds me of my school years. that made me want to cry.
I felt i lost a lot after college, and i am transfering to a different person. God knows how i wish i could turn back time to my blue college years.
Somehow i am more straighforward and outgoing than before (if you don't agree i am outgoing, then you can imagine how pessimistic i used to be). the darker side of me didn't go away, i just learned to hide it better.