Lucky or not

I always regarded myself as a person who lacks of luck. Therefore, when something good happens to me, I feel that's a blessing; when something bad happens, I know it is by nature and irresistable.
Keeping this idea in mind, I found that I have been very lucky to have family and friends support me all the time. But now, alone with Eddie here in Seattle, sometimes I feel a little bit lost.
I started to doubt what I should do, what I can do, what I will be, and what is the future lying in front of me. I started to ask myself, "What are you doing, Lizzie?"